Matthew 11:27-29

I had a lot of juicy stuff to post here. But that all dissipated suddenly.

I don't even know why I'm feeling like this.

I think I need to love myself more. I know I'm supposed to love Jesus first, others second and myself last, but lately I think God has been nudging me reminders about loving myself, too.

I haven't gotten enough sleep all week, and I have been pushing myself to my limits, I think. I say "I think" because I actually don't know what my limits are. Even though I feel like I could have done so much more, I worked hard all week, trying to catch up with schoolwork as well as figuring out my academics and related plans.

Emotionally, I am drained. Physically, I am stretched to my body's boundaries. Spiritually, I am getting better but I know that I still need to be seeking God.

I tried to do work all weekend. Saturday was full to the brim with meetings and then hockey practice. During practice, I injured myself, albeit not badly. I won't hesitate to say that it was probably mostly due to my lack of energy resulting from this past week's events.

I injured myself more today during the hockey game. Again, I am blessed that it wasn't that badly. I tried to work today. Again, I didn't do much, although I was able to read a bit.

Maybe God is trying to tell me something. Maybe he's trying to tell me to rest, recharge, and refresh myself. I feel conflicted about this because I feel like I should have gotten all of that done during reading week, but I haven't. And I'm disappointed in myself. I feel inferior (although I know I shouldn't) that I injured myself so much.

I think I have to take care of myself better this week... which will start tomorrow (today?) because it's currently 12:40 am. Dang it.

My challenge and hope for you this week is that you will remember to take care of yourself, too. Don't sleep late, eat healthily, and work hard, but rest up, too. Most importantly, remember to rely on God, because without him, you can do nothing.